Steadfast Love

Lamentations 3:22–23 (EVS)

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”

The Void

There was a time in my life when I felt completely empty. Surrounded by people, active in life, but still aching deep inside. I couldn’t explain it, I just knew something was wasn’t right.

So I tried to fill it with temporary things that promised instant comfort, but delivered more brokenness. I chased validation in work, friendships, and potential romantic relationships, thinking that if I could just be enough for someone, maybe I’d finally feel worthy.

I looked for healing in sex, alcohol, chasing money, and even new age spiritual practices. I ran after anything that could make the ache go away. I always felt like I was in survival mode 24/7 because nothing ever clung. Nothing ever lasted. It felt like I was trying desperately to hold on to anything that felt promising just to keep the feeling alive.

When I was married years ago, that lingering void was there. Even when I had my children. I thought having a family of my own would satisfy that longing. But it didn’t. The emptiness followed me. Eventually, I made the painful decision to leave the marriage, hoping I’d find freedom and peace on my own. Instead, things got darker. The pain grew louder. And that’s when I started reaching for unhealthy coping mechanisms just to get by.

My heart felt painfully raw—impossible to heal. But God stepped in and made me believe that healing was possible.

In a previous post, The Lies We Believe, I shared how trauma and past experiences shaped my thinking—how I unknowingly built an identity around pain, rejection, and fear. I had convinced myself that I was unworthy of real love, that everything I had done was just my karma, that I had to earn value, that brokenness was just my normal.

But when God’s love entered in, it began to tear down every lie I had believed about who I was—and who He was. His steadfast love didn’t just comfort me—it transformed me.

The love I had been missing was never meant to be found in people, money, or spiritual trends. It was always meant to be found in Him. And for the first time, I wasn’t just surviving—I was starting to heal.

The Anchor I Didn’t Know I Needed

For so long, I believed love had to be earned. That if I didn’t do everything right, I would lose it. I carried that belief into every relationship—including the way I first viewed God.

Deep down, I thought He would get tired of me too. That maybe, if He really saw how broken I was, He’d walk away like others had. Part of me expected Him to give up on me.

But He didn’t.

God’s love didn’t flinch when He saw the ugliest parts of my heart.

It didn’t waver on the days I doubted or when I slipped back into old patterns.

It didn’t grow cold when I wrestled with anger, fear, and shame.

His love stayed.

Through the confusion, through the healing, through every tear I didn’t think anyone saw—He stayed. His love became the one thing in my life that didn’t shift with my circumstances. It became the steady ground beneath my shaking feet.

It’s His steadfast love that held me when I thought I was too far gone. It’s His steadfast love that whispered, “You’re still mine. I’m not letting go.”

It’s His steadfast love that gave me the courage to believe that healing wasn’t just possible—it was promised. I’m not perfect. I’m still in process, but I don’t have to prove myself to God. I don’t have to pretend I’m not broken. I just have to let Him love me—and that’s where everything is being made new.

To the One Still Searching

If you’re still chasing something to fill the emptiness, I get it. I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to try and quiet the pain with people, chasing money, or distractions—only to feel even more lost.

But here’s what I’ve learned: healing is possible.

And it starts when you stop running and let God in.

You don’t have to fix yourself first.

You don’t have to pretend you’re okay.

You just have to be willing to surrender.

God’s love isn’t scared of your mess.

It stays. It heals. It transforms.

You’re not too far. You’re not too broken.

His steadfast love is still reaching for you.

“The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.”

—Jeremiah 31:3 (ESV)

Prayer:

God,

For the one reading this who feels empty, worn out, or far from You—I ask that You meet them right where they are. Show them that Your love isn’t distant or conditional. Remind them that You see every broken place, and You still choose to stay.

Let Your steadfast love be their anchor. Break through the lies they’ve believed and speak truth into the places they’ve tried to hide. Heal what they thought was impossible to heal.

Draw them near, and don’t let go.

Thank You for never giving up on us. Thank You for being the kind of love that transforms us from the inside out.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.