“Faith doesn’t silence fear—it just refuses to let fear lead.”—LT
There’s a moment we all face when God calls us forward and fear tries to talk us out of it.
Sometimes it’s loud and obvious.
Other times, it’s subtle… disguised as logic, hesitation, or “waiting for the right time.”
This week, I found myself standing in that very place.
Feeling the pull of obedience, but also feeling the weight of uncertainty.
And I had to ask myself: Am I going to let fear win, or am I going to trust God anyway, even if I tremble doing it?
This post is a reflection of that moment. A reminder that fear doesn’t disqualify you, and faith isn’t about perfection… it’s about choosing to trust the One who holds it all together.
Showing Up Anyway
There’s a quiet battle that often begins before obedience ever takes place.
It’s not always external.
It’s not always dramatic.
Sometimes it shows up in the form of hesitation.
That moment where your heart knows what God is leading you to do…
but your flesh, your trauma, your past rejections, and your overthinking start to argue with your spirit.
That’s where I’ve been.
Fear didn’t shout. It whispered.
It tried to dress itself up as wisdom, tried to justify caution with “logic” and “timing.”
But the truth is, it was fear.
And not the holy, reverent kind.
It was the kind meant to stop me from moving forward.
And I knew it.
Because the closer I get to obedience, the louder the resistance becomes.
Not just from outside, but from within.
But I’m learning something in this season:
Being honest about where you are is growth.
It’s growth to say:
“I’m afraid.”
“I feel overwhelmed.”
“I don’t know if I’m enough for what God is asking of me.”
You’re not pretending to be fearless.
You’re just choosing not to be ruled by fear.
You’re dragging it into the light instead of stuffing it down—and that’s how you take away its power.
Let’s be clear:
The fear you feel right now is not from God.
“God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.”—2 Timothy 1:7
The enemy gets loud when your obedience is close. He’s not attacking you just for where you are, he’s terrified of what your yes will unlock.
And he knows something we forget:
Your obedience isn’t just about you. It’s about every person your faith will touch.
It’s about every breakthrough that will ripple out from your surrender.
It’s about the legacy your courage is shaping right now. It’s okay to feel fear, it’s not okay to obey it.
Obedience in fear is still obedience.
Courage is not the absence of trembling… it’s choosing to move forward while trembling. You can feel unsure and still be anointed.
You can feel unqualified and still be called. Excuses are the enemy’s way of slowing down destiny.
He knows he can’t take your calling, so he tries to make you delay it with doubt. He’ll offer you “valid reasons” why now’s not the right time.
But those reasons will always pull you away from faith, not into it.
So here’s what I’m holding on to:
I am stepping out not because I know the whole plan,
but because I trust the One who holds the plan.
That’s not just a nice quote. It’s truth I’m preaching to myself every single day.
Because some days I want clarity.
Some days I want confirmation.
But God keeps reminding me: Toya, what you really need is trust.
Faith doesn’t cancel trembling. It redeems it.
I’ve trembled in my healing.
Trembled in my obedience.
Trembled in writing posts like this, wondering if I’m saying too much or being too vulnerable.
But I’m learning to trust that God is not asking me to be perfect.
He’s just asking me to say yes.
And I believe that He can take my small, imperfect yes and do something eternal with it.
A Prayer for the Fearful Obedient:
Father, I feel the fear, but I choose the faith.
I won’t lie to You about where I am, because You already see it anyway.
You know my thoughts, my doubts, my silent battles.
But You also know the strength You’ve placed in me.
I choose to walk by faith, not by sight.
Strengthen me to step even when I feel unsure.
Remind me that I don’t have to do this in my own strength. You are with me.
I believe You will finish what You started in me.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
This isn’t about being strong all the time.
This is about surrender.
It’s about believing that God will breathe on your obedience, even if it’s just a whisper of a step.
A Milestone
I’m almost six months into my walk with Christ.
And I’ve never felt more aware of the tug-of-war between who I was, who I’m becoming, and who God has already declared me to be.
The enemy wants me to quit.
My flesh wants comfort.
But my spirit is choosing faithfulness.
Not perfection. Not performance.
Just presence, and a heart that keeps saying, “Yes, Lord. I’m still here. I’m still choosing You.”
A Rising Remnant 
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